Ho-fun.

So there is one more week remaining of my second year in University. I’m not sure if I should be happy or what? I should be happy because it means I will be free to an extent, I still need to find placement! However within this week it will be hell, since there is so much work to do I honestly think a week isn’t enough. But, I shall work as hard as I possibly can because I know heaven is at the end of it. The break I’ve been waiting for, to actually relax without worrying about work, deadlines, progress. I’m not sure if I should be happy that I am one year closer to graduation (depending if I get placement). 

I need to work extremely hard this week, because I need to feel like I deserve what I want to buy afterwards! heh.

Tabula Rasa, which means blank slate. Or in my case a blank canvas, I don’t know while looking at it and listening to Ludovico Einaudi - Nuvole Bianche, there’s something quite peaceful about it. 

Often you’d assume there has to be something on a canvas to make it beautiful, but looking at it now it seems quite beautiful with nothing on it. I think the process of sitting down thinking what to paint on it, in itself is a creation of a beautiful piece. 

I see it reflects life in a way, everyone starts of as a tabula rasa and with the paints provided you begin to paint your life, and at the end of your life is your master piece. But as I said it looks peaceful being blank, maybe it’s the simplicity I long for in my life that I used to have? 

Often we need to wipe the slate clean and start again.

Those three words have been taken and devoured by my course.