Life is going to throw so much at you and it’s up to you on how much you can catch. If you keep catching soon enough you will be weighed down and suppressed with so much going on. You got to throw back at life in order to gain what you want in it. Aim for something and throw at it and make sure you hit the target. In order for you to be what you want to be you need to take control and start throwing back at life. Show life you will be the pitcher and that you have control.
Even the brave become scared. The strong become weak.
We all experience this in our lives and it’s an experience which we can use to better ourselves as a character and person. Learn from the misfortunes in your life in order to reach a higher goal and better yourself.
Since coming back to London I don’t feel like the person I was when I left. I don’t know what it is but it almost feels like something is missing in my life. *sigh*
What is it I don’t know but I honestly feel like it’s something important. I mean I act the same, look the same but don’t entirely feel the same. This may sound stupid in a way or silly but it honestly been affecting me in a very big way. I honestly just want what I’m missing back and I pray that I get it back. Maybe it got left in Hong Kong, this may sound weird because I’m not speaking of an actual object it seems to be much more spiritual. I feel like a actual piece of me is missing. I just pray and hope I get what I am missing back. This isn’t the person I was 2 months ago *sigh*. It’s as if someone has come in and reached in and took something and now it’s missing.
Maybe it is the regret that I hold for not being able to do everything I wanted to do and letting people down while I was in Hong Kong due to my illness. I am not sure.